emoish

okie aft a long time of not blogging
let me do something first
*blows of dust*
okie now im okie to write
haha
actually it is not something happy
and btw im emoish
aft toking to my god sis
and thanks to her im now feeling that im not good
as in looks, personality and many more
thanks i officially feel like killing myself
seriously nvm its okie actually no use blogging though
it doesnt actually make me feel beta if anyone sees this
and comes along and comfort me

friday,saturday,sunday

okie starting off with friday post
friday was chem lecture test day
i think it was quite badly done as i forgot most of wad i study when i went in
stupid right
the previous night i still mug so hard for it
anyway if god allows i think the questions i was able to do can guarantee me a just pass
anyway aft the test went to play badminton and bball with my tt frens
they are great man
going out with dam only guarantee laughter and joy
i will nv EVER get sad with them
anyway aft tt go home dam tired that i slept early
haha....
saturday, which was ystd
was quite boring though stayed at home the whole day
mugging n mugging n mugging
tok to my shanghai fren, ky, like most of the time
than tok to jr and weiming too
anyway ky is dam funny
nv ever fail to make me laugh
or lame in most cases
than at night cherilyn came and tok to me
haha she read my blog
which was like so dead for so long
but she still remember
how nice of her
anyway i toked to her abt the thing
she offered her concerned
THANKS GIRL!!!
haha and we even started planning when to meet
i suggested it and i hope i dun forget it
opps!!!
and also happy bday to amanda ystd
her sweet 18th yr old
now she is older than me
muahaha tmr go back sch can disturb liao
haha and she wanted a web cam
omg wad a "big" present
haha i nd to go find more ppl to chip in
if nt ltr heart pain pain
haha okie finally sunday
woke up at like around 10am
and started mugging
until parents come back with breakfast
they also bought me something
which is korean strawberries
it is god damn nice i tell u
sweet and a little bit of sour
so worth it i think
haha than until night time i still mugging
now finally squeeze a lil time to blog than go back to studies
omg when do i ever get a break man
and i wanna watch this movie call race to witch forest(i think so)
which is coming at march 12
i saw the trailer and i tot it is quite nice
finding many ppl to go watch with me
any1???
okie i think tts all...ciaos guys and girls

sad

gone...everything is gone
nothing is left for me
frenships are stupid things
wad tok abt bff
it sucks seriously it sucks
everything happened this morning
or should i say it is something that is long there?
speaking of long it is not exactly tt long
a few weeks ago i guess
i dunno lah
my fault? ur fault? her fault?
it just doesnt matter anymore
u said im the one who is always having such probs and im the ONE who is among such disputes
i agree
but aint it the same thing like last yr
where they are always the one who give me probs
i tell u this, u said u r neutral than i said fine
than i borrowed ur highlighter for a while maybe 10 seconds
u tell me i have to ask?
aft one yr of frenship is asking of tt important to u?
even though it is something polite but does it matter since we r frens for one yr?
u went for lunch with ******* u expect me to ask u tt?
when i dun even noe u r going to?
u expect me to assume that we always have lunch on our breaks?
have it ever occur to u tt this pattern is not weekly?
if it is weekly and i blame u for something like tt i accept is my fault
but it is not and the funniest thing is this is the first time ever u eat ur lunch aft pe
so i should be blamed for not smsing u?
anyway tt is between me and *****
next is ******* im standing for one hour in class
not able to finish my history tutorial
i only change my leg to stand
and u call tt fidgeting annoying?
when ur body is not totally facing me
if u r focus in class will u even notice such things?
does i have to tell u everything private if i wanna tell *****
mind u tt we r just frens for like 1 pus months
im not in the obligation to tell u my private things
and seriously me and ***** is our prob,
i dunno why must u think tt her being ur fren
when we argue u always stand at her side?
does it occur to u u r childish in such thinking?
anyway it all doesnt matter now
frenships r stupid things
i wont ever bother to believe real frenships
maybe now table tennis frens and og frens are my only frens in sch
seriously if u ever sees this message i wish u having a good life and future of urs
while i have mine
yes it is true that maybe i will find someone who cn understands me
maybe i should reflect, m i the one? maybe i m
the laughter and smiles i give to my og frens and table tennis frens will be a mask
a mask which i will put on for a very long time

new year new hopes

haha 2009
a new yr
new year resolutions are
my family happy and healthy
next study harder
good results for A's(working in progress)
slim down(a must)
become more shuai(haha ya u nv see wrongly)
my frens all bside me nv leave me and make me happy
okie i think tt is abt it lor
seriously leh
i dun wan my frens to leave me lor
or even make me angry or sad
cos i think i dam dan chun one lah
i regard as u one bt u dun right
i will treat u dam cold next time
so i wish those who i told them they r my good fren
we will be happy together k
haha...
sianz lah dam tired now but i said wan torn(or other spelling)
sianz nd do finish homework than slp
okie go chiong liao...

new post aft so long

finally im blogging back
but is nt a good post
im sick and tired of ppl in the wrong
and in the argument im like so god damn in the wrong
wtf sia
i seriously have enuff of such nonsense
i hate this kind of things
i shall stand on my ground that im so god dam right
u stupid ppl out there
i so dun bother liao
dun make me angry when u r in the wrong
i will god damn scold u when i see u again
if im so angry right i will make u pay sia

finally im back

okie finally im back into blogging
aft 14 days since the last post
haha anyway
the results for my re-exams are out
i made it to j2
woa....aft another round of hardwork
cool i can promote with meryl
thanks to my parents
always there for me
haha touched...
anyway i also nd say big thanks to
MERYL AND JIAREN
thanks to these two person
for being with me the whole day
despite the results were out at 4.30pm
but still they were there with me
giving me comfort and other jokes
thanks man...love the two of u
haha okie quite mushy
anyway also nd say thanks to my god laopa
cos i will be able to get free lunch/dinner from him
and also my charm videos from meryl
haha okie i will blog until here
tmr still nd wake up early for year head briefing
so ya blog next time
bye!!

nearing the re-exam

okie monday 10th november
raining in the morning but stopped during the afternoon
woke at at 10am cos of the rain
than i was like having a nice dream
than got woke up by it
so dam annoyed
than went downstairs to watch tv
than watch tv until like 11.50pm than go back upstairs to prepare to go sch
cos faizal said to reach by 1pm
sianz i reach there like at 12.45
cos my bus today was early
than saw andre
sat down bside him
good thing i saw him cos basically i knew nothing of the venue
so found out we should go Lt1
okie not bad
than i saw jiaren
than saw eugene
and aft seeing eugene
i saw sf
which was walking in front of eugene
okie now tt is weird
but coincidental
haha anyway
than we stand there tok
than i saw nicholas fren
omg i was like so god damn embarrassed now
it is like my cousin
saw this guy on frenster
and she went to add him
cos when i was toking to shimin on one fine night until around 2am in the morning
this email came
than it was like u and this guy are frens
wow shock of my life duh!
than aft which i send an email to him to be frens
cos u noe she did the trouble
and than but this guy deleted me from frenster
than i was like okie nvm
than i saw my shoutout was changed
into quoted from mamma mia"if he were to be free, he wouldnt fancy me"
than i was like wad....cos if u all got watch this movie
the lyrics was like tt
than i was like wth
i really wanted to kill my cousin
but u noe i cant right
so i assume that this guy must have saw this and think wrongly
that is my guess lah definitely
but i CHANGED it
so ya return to today
and i saw this guy
omg omg
i like quickly move to my frens's side
lol i was like so afraid
omg omg die lah
im dying of embarassment
seriously
hmmm any proposed ideas to deal with this
u can tag on my blog
sianz now i nd to go back to study econs
and i haven even finish doing my 4 essays
cos i haven study finish econs
i was like at my second lecture book
still got one more
finish le than can start writing
die liao lah the exams are near but i haven finish studying
die i nd to pass u noe
no use getting worried
but there is use to work hard
so i will do it now
so end of today post..
(rolling credits)